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Friday, November 4, 2011

What would you do?

I wasn't a kid who dreamed of the some day.  I didn't plan my wedding. I was never going to get married.  I wouldn't allow myself to be vulnerable like that. I didn't dream of children.  I was never going to have any. I knew I would screw them up and fund their therapists vacation home.  I didn't plan what I was going to do when I grew up. Because I didn't want to fail. I would play it safe and keep a roof over my head and my body fed. Even though deep down I knew safe didn't feed my soul.

Life, fate, and God had other ideas. Over the years, these ideas, these fears, the resolutions have slowly been chipped away.  I became a parent and fell in love and I didn't completely ruin either one.  A little bit at a time, I tried on the idea of daydreaming.  Life happened, I got knocked down and as always, I brushed myself off and kept going, pushing onward, but not necessarily upward.  

Somewhere along the way I realized I had to stop waiting for what life gave me then wondering why I wasn't happy.  I had to stop waiting for my life to happen and instead go out and make the life I wanted happen. 

I just got back from a late evening of wiping inches of dust from cupboards, sweeping floors, hanging curtains, and moving the same throw rug six times.  Bit by bit it is coming together. My dream.  My passion.  It feels so weird to say my studio. I still don't know what my end vision is, but I am going for it, I am taking that running leap. I fight the fear of failure constantly.  I don't want to return home tail between my legs and defeated. But I cannot live with never taking the chance at my dream.

I saw this sign on Pinterest (can you say addiction?) today and it just hit me like a truck.  So tell me- What would you dream of? What are you passionate about?  What would you do if you knew you could not fail?  And to help fuel that dream, one person who leaves a comment about their dream will win a $15 gift card to their choice of Dunkin Donuts or Starbucks! Comment contest will be open until Sunday November 6th at 5pm.

9 comments:

Rebecca said...

Hugs! I know this feeling, more or less. Went to school for medicine, got into grad school only to pass it up and explore this crazy opportunity that came along. Chasing I dream I never knew I had! Sounds like you're doing the same thing :) So excited for you!!

Jenn Lawlor said...

Love love love this blog post :) And the photo....
Follow that dream friend. You'd always regret never trying so go for it!! You're my hero as I share the same dream. :)

Dad said...

The truth is even if it doesn't succeed (in the normal definition of that word) you will not have failed. Failure only comes in not taking the risk to begin with! At least that's what I have discovered. :)

Samantha R said...

If I knew I could not fail, I would end world hunger, forever. To me, children dying anywhere on this planet because there is not enough food, is beyond my imagination. The thought that a helpless child goes hungry, while another human being drives a $400,000 vehicle, is mind numbing. This is not about WHO has what or WHO needs what or even social class, ethnicity or education. We are talking about a core necessity to life, that is becoming more of a luxury in our society. People *budgeting* their grocery shopping around their electric bill and rent/mortgage payment, is disturbing on so many levels and yet I see it daily. I see the fight for families to provide food for their children here in one of the greatest countries in the world. Food should be a right, not a privilege.

My favorite quote on Failure... “Life's real failure is when you do not realize how close you were to success when you gave up.”

Nicole L. said...

So happy to see you have shed your hard candy shell to find the sweetness in life. Glad we are not those kids anymore, but would not trade it for anything! Follow your dreams ans inspire the rest of us!

jess said...

I got a little teary eyed reading this because it sounds so much like me. I mean yah I am scared of spiders but deep down, my biggest fear is failure. If I think I might fail, I will probably just pass on it. Most people don't know that or wouldn't guess that about me bur, sadly, its true...........If I knew I wouldn't fail........I would spend my life dancing because the feeling that I get when I dance is something I can't even describe! After 30 years, I still feel the same way.

Sonia said...

I would fuel my new passion for motorcycles and open a shop specializing in lady biker needs- clothing,leather goods,BLING, custom motorcycles and accessories AND I would take 2 weeks and just head off on my bike solo...

Tanice said...

Congratulations!! I am so excited for you and this new journey in your life!!.... And my day dream ... we share a similar passion ... and I'm working on making mine become a reality too ...

Brandi Stevenson said...

So happy for you Alision

 
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